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[08 Jun 2005|05:58pm]

3van3sc3nc3
hey just wantd ur opinion on this song... be honest if it sux say so pleeze...

you just betrayed me
whn i was faithful to you
i thought this would never end
not after what we've been through
what did i do that pushed you away
and made you leave me?

chorus:
i'm falling away now
further now into my mind
remembering you
the pain, the betrayal
your lies are killing me.

now i'm standing here about to leave
this will be m last night here
i look at the water and see your face
once so comforting
but now i can only see the lies and pain
this is the one place i could go to feel safe.

chorus

i watch as my tears fall into the darkness
my heart is damaged beyond repair
i have no life without you here
bu the life i had with you was fake
so tonight i will write my final goodbye
so everyone will know why i have died

chorus

you are killing me...
you just killed me...

(1 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

[10 Feb 2005|09:11pm]

3van3sc3nc3
[ mood | crushed ]

SITTING WATCHING THE WORLD PASS BY
WATCHING EVERYONE CHANGE BUT STILL I REMAIN THE SAME
I'M STILL UNLOVED, REJECTED AND ALONE
I'M STILL HURTING AND UPSET
DON'T KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE LOVED, MISSED OR NEEDED
BUT I AM STILL HERE
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I HATE IT I WONT LEAVE

(1 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

...ME... [14 Jan 2005|10:36pm]

3van3sc3nc3
[ mood | depressed ]

FEELING NOTHING INSIDE EXCEPT PAIN
TOO ONLY LAUGH BUT NOT FEEL THE HAPPINESS THAT GOES WITH IT
TO FEEL BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING
AND YELLED AT FOR NOTHING
TO HEAR THE SAME WORDS OVER AND OVER BUT THEY MEAN NOTHING TO YOU
TO ALWAYS TELL EVERYONE YOU’RE OK WHEN YOU KNOW YOU’RE NOT
TOO SCARED TO TELL THE TRUTH BECAUSE IT HURTS TO ADMIT,
HURTS TO ADMIT YOU’RE NOT OK AND YOU CAN’T COPE WITH LIFE
HOW YOU MAKE UP EXCUSES SO YOU CAN SIT AND CRY, ALONE
TO PUSH EVERYONE AWAY, SO YOU DON’T GET HURT YOURSELF
TO KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING, TO NOT WANT TO DO IT
BUT CAN’T MAKE YOURSELF STOP.
TO HATE EVERYTHING YOU’VE BECOME
BUT CAN’T CHANGE WHAT IS NEEDED TO YOURSELF
TOO SCARED TO ASK FOR HELP…

(watch me bleed)

[09 Jan 2005|11:31pm]

3van3sc3nc3
[ mood | rejected ]

LEFT ALONE AND UNWANTED
ABANDONED AND UPSET
FOREVER BEING HURT AND DISAPOINTED
ALONE IN A WORLD OF REGRETS
BUT STILL SHE LOVES HIM AND DOESN'T KNOW WHY,
HE SAYS HE LOVES HER AND NEEDS HER
BUT NEVER SEEMS TO CARE,
DOESN'T MAKE THE EFFORT
BUT SHE STILL FOREVER REMAINS BY HIS SIDE
NO MATTER WHAT HE DOES
HE AND SHE BOTH KNOW SHE'LL NEVER LEAVE HIM...

(watch me bleed)

just another poem [09 Jan 2005|11:24pm]

3van3sc3nc3
[ mood | sad ]

something i wrote:

EMPTY SPACES HIDE WITHIN
HER CONFUSION DEEP INSIDE
THOUGHTS OF HIM ARE ENDLESSLY HURTING HER
AS SHE WONDERS IF HE CARES,
NOW SHE'LL NEVER KNOW
SHE RUNS THE BLADE ACROSS HER SKIN
THE PAIN DISAPEARS AS SHE CLOSES HER EYES
SHE THINKS OF HIM AND WHISPERS GOODBYE,
DIEING NOT KNOWING IF SHE IS LOVED OR USED
BUT ONE THING SHE KNOWS IS SHE'S ALL ALONE
HE HAS FORGOTTEN SHE EXISTS.

(watch me bleed)

[09 Jan 2005|11:21pm]

3van3sc3nc3
[ mood | calm ]

hey im new 2 dis community obviously um well about me hmmm i have depressinon and cut my wrists my dad killed himself when i was 7 and i hate my life. well thats about it really g that was easy and quick.

(watch me bleed)

shhhh [21 Sep 2004|02:31pm]

spacegurl_spiff

 

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just a poem [05 Sep 2004|06:30pm]

drownedandinsne
They say love is the answer ...well what was the question?Do we really believe that love is goning to save us if we are dieng? If so I am dieng inside...why am i not being saved.Do we really believe if we kill someone love will save us? If so I am killing those around me with my unhappiness...why hasn't love saved me?Do we really believe that if we try to kill ourselves that love will save us?Well it has saved me once...but that love left and with him left my desire to live...where is love now?

-Jay

(2 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

new [04 Sep 2004|02:51pm]

drownedandinsne
Hey I just joined this community and I am new to LJ.They call me jay but I was named Jasmine.I am 15 and I do absolutely nothing...


Today I cried because I couldn't help but think of you.I coundn't help but hat think of what happened and what you did to me.I cried for days and locked myself in the bathroom,watching the very substance that gives me life and runs through my veins run down the bathtub drain. Hearing the water run faintly as I sink into the cold water/I opened my eyes,watching that substance thin and float around me.Closing my eye I waited for it to end...then you saved me

(3 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

[01 Aug 2004|02:12am]

ratekyzlyricz
[ mood | crushed ]

Hey pplz! this is mah first posting here, so i am a bit nervous...i am not very good at writing (i am 12, so i hope i get better as i grow older and go through more) so i apriciate all the feedback i can get. i hope u enjoy mah work, plz comment, thankz!
Inspiration- The boy in my summer school class

Nothing

I am all alone
But I feel someone breathing down my neck
I feel my hair stand on edge
I feel something against my arm
I feel someone’s presence
I turn around
But it’s nothing
As always
It’s nothing

(chorus)
My eyes are red from crying
My mind is hurt from thinking of you
My heart is bruised from being batted around
My wrists hurt from being cut
And just when I think something is here to relinquish the pain
I turn around and see nothing

I am standing in front of you
But you push me aside
Do you remember my name?
Do you remember my face?
Do you remember me?
You walk through me
Because I am nothing
As always
I am nothing

(chorus)
My eyes are red from crying
My mind is hurt from thinking of you
My heart is bruised from being batted around
My wrists hurt from being cut
And just when I think something is here to relinquish the pain
I turn around and see nothing

I am better then her
But she is who you would rather see
Not me
Not me
Does she make you smile bigger?
Can she even see through your façade?
Like I can
And I can do nothing
As always
I can do nothing

(1 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

Streaming indie video, underground Spike Jonze, looking for submissions and feedback [30 May 2004|12:23pm]

boffo_film

(2 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

:) [20 Apr 2004|02:59pm]

erindelicious
Hey ya'll- just thought I'd give you an invite to my other journal to read a large collection of poetry i've just posted.
I hope you visit, and enjoy! Feel free to leave comments :)
(all the poetry has been written by me)

www.livejournal.com/~erinhurd

Thanks :)

(watch me bleed)

[22 Jan 2004|11:37am]

uoy_ykcul
"THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING."
I wont feel the weight of the world, the massive world...
the world im convinced will crush me.
I wont feel peices of my broken heart, flowing through my veins...
the veins im convinced haven't bleed enough.
THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING
and, I won't even know when I am in pain, I won't even know
and not knowing is better, much better than knowing and doing nothing...
I won't feel the need to cry anymore, no more tears will come come out of these dark eyes. These damn dark eyes, that know they DESERVE some light.
This body, won't be brusied anymore...no matter if they are back in style. Bruises, are not my couture.
THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING
This person, this being, will be be able to face the world, and never shiver in fear, never ask the stupid question, "WILL THIS HURT?", of fucking course it hurts...well, except to me, I feel NOTHING.
What a glorious day, when I can say "I FEEL NOTHING" and actually mean it. I FEEL EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. every shread of hate and idsbelife, I FEEL IT ALL. Every single bit of it. And its killing me, roting my insides. For that should I be thankful? WHY YES! because...
THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING
THIS HAS TO HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING...
unless it KILLS me first.

(1 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

[07 Jan 2004|07:00pm]

lifeless_corpse
im new. found this community from another one i joined. yay.

something my girlfriend wrote...

youll never understand the pain you put me though
all the years of physical and metal abuse
ill take my life to get rid of the dismay
take my life to get rid of all the decay
you knocked me down, never to pick me back up
you beat me down, never admitted that you fucked up
ill take my life to rid me of all the pain
take my life so that ill finally be sane
take my life cause you never took the blame
you never had a kind word to say
sat around with a heart thats cold and grey
ill take my life to get rid of the decay
ill take my life so ill finally be sane
ill take my life cause you never took the blame

also posted in (xxnazi_haloxx)

(3 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

hi [02 Jan 2004|01:17pm]

kendy
[ mood | blah ]

i just joined, i hope thats allright. :)
here's a poem i wrote a while ago, but it's my favorite piece.

WEEP

I walk in front of Sorrow. She follows as I go
On our way we pass Destiny, he's counting all his woes
Freedom fights with Tyranny, as Peace is kissed by War
Wonder dances with Knowledge, waltzing past Deceptions door

Innocence met Pain when Fate bumped into Harm
Hate watches with Silence, as Love falls to Broken's arms
I blankly stare at Fear as he tries to draw me in
He waits with Patience for me to start turning to him again

Dreaming controls Reality, or tries to half the time
She buys chains to lock him down, they only cost a dime
I gaze at Life with Contempt, when Depression entices me
Death grew wings so she could loom over all of us and weep.

(watch me bleed)

[25 Dec 2003|01:08am]

uoy_ykcul
addicted

i want you
to be addicted.
to everything
that I am.
So that when
you really want me,
I can leave.
and treat you to the
shit; the shit,
you treat me to
everyday of my
life.
december 25th 2003


unsaid prayer
i'll close my eyes and say agian the unsaid prayer;
"dear whoever is in heavan:
I asked for happiness, and instead I got sold a false sense of empty joy. I asked for guidance, so I wouldn't be so lost all the time, and insted I got sent back a way I had already come. I promised, that if someone could have some faith in me, that I would have some in you. But i am again left, religionless. I said that I would try harder, and while I tried, you strengthened my enemy, and I was left defeated again. I told you that I had sinned, and I hoped for fogivness, but I have no sign that you even heard me. Do you even listen? dear whoever you are: I don't know what else to say. I'd ask something from you again, but i'd just be left with an open empty void, that I had exposed and wretched from its hidden place, by bringing it up. forever and ever Amen"
december 25th 2003

(watch me bleed)

screaming random somethings [16 Dec 2003|09:37am]

uoy_ykcul
I just want to SCREAM
and rip off my own head.
I don't think I can take it,
I just wish that I were dead.

I wish that I could tell you,
"starry silence sounds so cute"
but i fucking hate that sound,
so my comments probably moot.

If the all the worlds a stage
wheres the audience sit?
The world is just a fucking cage,
and we are all trapped in it.

If I slit my wrists,
and if I die?,
would you clench your fists?
would you even cry?

Tommorow is a world away,
yesterday is gone,
if i live one more day,
it'll be a mirical from god.

The pressure pushing against my heart,
is to horrible to bare,
i'll grab my heart, rip it apart,
and drench myself in blood.

can i be anymore fucked up?
I guess this is what I give.
i don't think it is possible,
cuz this is what you get.


-Paige
wow. I feel totally better. I really purged my heart out into that.

(watch me bleed)

[15 Dec 2003|09:32pm]

uoy_ykcul
hey folks...

sorry this is a "bad post" not really a post you should post here, but I want you guys to know about my new community! It has a dark poetic theme, but doesn't have boundries as to what kind of posts you can put...examples!!!---

  • post pix- of anything



  • post poems/stories/letters ect.



  • post song lyrics and what not



  • rant and rave about your day or nothing, ask questions, find different people who share your scene.



I would love it if yall would just check it out, I want this community to grow and be prosperous!!

The community name is xxnazi_haloxx if you know who Jack off Jill is, then you'll get the name! XD have a good day, and please check out the community!!

-Paige uoy_ykcul

(1 slit my wrists | watch me bleed)

Farewell [08 Dec 2003|09:32pm]

supergirl_87
[ mood | accomplished ]

The pain of a thousand knives
Stabbed into my heart
Pouring my blood all over the floor
It happened again tonight
As I close my eyes
I can see your face
As I gulp hard
I can feel the heartache

I've never felt this before
Never have I given up
The deprivation of hope
I don't have the urge to go on

Every Feeling
Every Touch
Every Kiss
Every Smile in our eyes
Has been a lie

As I plummet to the floor
I can only think of you
As my tears pour from my eyes
I can only think I'm through
My heart's beating fast
I'm shaking uncontrollably
This pain is just to real

This empty feeling in the pit of my stomach
Can never be replaced
The emptiness in my heart
I'll never forget
The day you left

This will be the hardest thing i'll ever have to do
Don't think this was easy
You were absolutely everything
Never think once you weren't
You had my heart
I would have given you my life
Myself
To you
But I understand now
This is what I have to do

I'm Done
These are my final tears
My final words
My final breath

Farewell to you
Our future
Our Love
You've forgotten It
So have I.

(watch me bleed)

[08 Dec 2003|10:11pm]

uoy_ykcul
I keep on looking for the time,
to tell you I love you
But i don't think time is on my side.
And everytime I think you love me,
you just ignore me,
and i realize, its all just a pack of lies.
how easily my heart breaks...
becuase I wear it on my sleeve.
But i can not help it,
its the just the way i am
I need something to believe.

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